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Dr. Kevin Zadai 07-02-2023
Turn Everything Over to the Lord
Besides knowing our value, it is also essential that we feel safe and secure, which has to do with overcoming abandonment.~Kevin Zadai
And you did not receive the "spirit of religious duty," leading you back into the fear of never being good enough. But you have received the "Spirit of full acceptance," enfolding you into the family of God.
And you will never feel orphaned, for as He rises up within us, our spirits join Him in saying the words of tender affection, "Beloved
Father!"
—Romans 8:15 TPT
DISCUSSION:
Today we will discuss what the Lord has revealed to me about turning everything over to the Lord. We may have heard people talk about it, but it's another thing to sincerely do it from your heart because it's difficult to do. This life is not easy. We have many ministers in the past who have made it sound like it's a lot simpler than it is.
SURRENDERING YOUR WILL
Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.
—Matthew 7:14
It's time to be honest and get back to the basics. Life is difficult, and we must tell the truth about these things. One of the things I've learned in the time I've had with the Lord, is how to turn everything over to Him. He has actually coached me in this, and still, it's not as easy as what I've heard ministers teach. It has to do with the breaking and surrendering of your will. I've found that you must release everything that's bothering you, not just the obvious things.
Ministers have falsely taught that if things are not going right, it's simply a lack of faith. That's the easy cop-out for ministers; they have shoved it off as the people's fault. Jesus showed me that a true leader communicates, implements, and helps people to receive an impartation to where they understand revelation; this results in them bearing fruit.
Whatever is bothering you is something that needs to be addressed. It's not enough to say, "I'm going to turn this over to you, Lord." You must ask yourself, "What is bothering me?" and "Why is this bothering me?" The Lord once appeared in my house and asked me, "What is bothering you?" I could not answer Him at first because I didn't even know. I was irritated and bothered, but I didn't understand what was really going on with me. I was taught it was "just me" or "just the way it was." But it's not how it is; something is going on which needs to be surrendered to the Lord.
GET TO THE ROOT OF WHAT IS BOTHERING YOU
If the devil is allowed to chronically bother you, you must find out what is at the root of it. Then find out why it is bothering you. That is what Jesus did with me in person. He asked what was bothering me, and I had to think about it for a while. When I told Him, He asked, "What's the root of that?" I didn't immediately know the answer; it took three days. I told the Lord that I had to think about that. Jesus appeared to me several times and asked me questions. Some I could answer right away, yet other times I told Him, "I'm going to need to think about this. I don't know." Although He already knew, He wouldn't tell me; He wanted me to see it.
This week is a special time to discuss this topic because these issues need to be addressed. I don't want you to feel like you're being brushed off or blamed for lacking faith or maturity. That's what church leadership sometimes does. However, we all want resolution. The problem is that we honestly do not understand ourselves or what's happening. No one clearly laid it out to show us what was going on. Thankfully, the Lord did this for me.
In the past, I couldn't comprehend why there was such a disconnect in relationships. I didn't understand the dynamics of what was happening. I wondered why there was pain in my heart and why I responded to certain situations the way I did. My response was automatic; it was not something I had planned or thought of. Later, I realized I negatively reacted to situations because I felt unsafe. I felt out of balance and as if something was wrong. I felt rejected in many circumstances, even though there was no logical reason. My behavior changed as I responded out of hurt and rejection.
When Jesus asked me what was bothering me, I found out it was that I didn't understand why I didn't have a closer relationship with my dad growing up. Jesus revealed what was happening then, and it concerned my father, not me. Yet it impacted me because I felt disconnected from him. I have always longed for that relationship with my father; I wanted that intimacy we never had.
Once I realized that I felt rejected by my father, I also understood how that impacted the rest of my life. Sometimes, this caused me to respond the same way to other people and situations automatically. The bottom line was that I actually felt abandoned because of the rejection. The root was even deeper than rejection; I felt abandoned because I didn't have a father figure. In other words, I felt incomplete. Because of that, essential pieces were missing from my character and life.
It took days for me to resolve the loss, rejection, and abandonment I felt from not having that relationship with my father. I was deprived of the tools I needed for my personality and character to develop healthily. That stabilization that I needed as a child was not there. I didn't have that sense of safety, security, and confidence, which caused me to always feel like a failure. Growing up, I always felt like a victim who was not protected or defended. These issues caused me to expect unfavorable circumstances that hadn't happened yet. After a while, they became self-fulfilling prophecies. The devil accommodates many people in this area. They are in the same situation that I'm talking about.
o Are you able to identify what is bothering you or causing you to react in a certain way?
